I’m not really sure what to write about, so I’m just going to ramble again.
As of two days ago, my sister was kicked out of the house. Not for good, but “until she makes some changes to her behavior”. I agree with my mom, that my sister needs to change how she treats my mom and does her chores. But she’s my sister. When she left, I cried for two hours. I’m not sure what to do though. I need to function normally, and I shouldn’t let myself just sit like a shell. But I feel like I’m betraying my sister by going on. I know she will be back soon, but acting like she didn’t have an effect on our home makes me feel sick. I know she wants to come home. I still see her at school, and yesterday we all went to therapy together. She sobbed about wanting to come home, but my mom said no. I understand that the shock factor of her leaving was the only way to get through her, but I’d much rather do all of my sisters work with my own than have her not home. It’s just… quiet. We used to always joke together. We have so many inside jokes, and we’re always silly together. We discuss the latest music in kpop, the latest videos by our favorite vloggers. Now… it’s just quiet. I have nothing to do. Hm.
And of course I can’t go a few days without being in romantic toil. The person I like, that I thought I got over, came back like a bang since I came back to school. I tried distancing myself, but it didn’t really work. All that did was make me feel even worse since it didn’t really effect them at all. But now we’re kind of talking. They’re just as amazing as I remembered, but memory did no justice. So many people are interested in them, and they come to be to ask about relationships. Interesting. Also, someone very dear to me likes them, probably loves them, so theres noway I can do anything. I guess I can just stew in self pity and jealousy.
I should note that I love them as a friend. I’ve known them for about three years, but romantically I only like them. I learned my lesson from being to eager to make drama for myself last year and just overwork everything.
I guess this year has just been bleh so far. In my educational life, it’s been pretty good actually. I have a few tests to retake in Algebra II, but everyone does.
I don’t really have anything else to say. So until next time guys. Good luck in whatever you do!